I don't think I'm going to be able to go to Chicago. Money is so tight right now I can barely pay the bills (being newly single sucks ass sometimes), and unless I win the lotto or something crazy happens, I don't think I'll be able to go.
I cried really hard when I realized that even though I live 4 hours from Chicago, that $159 a night, PLUS all the food and drinks and stuff is just too much for me for my situation right now.
Wah :-( Everyone is going to meet and become BFF's and I'll be at home, crying and missing it all.
Fuck.
Friday, May 21, 2010
BYOC
I'm having a crappy week so all I'm posting today is the BYOC. Everyone have a great weekend.
1) If you had 3 wishes, what would they be and why?
Wish #1 would be to anxiety free. I know life causes anxiety, but I've dealt with the medical condition and medication for awhile now, and it would be nice to not have to take meds to feel less crazy!
Wish #2 would be a all inclusive vacation to Disney for my little boy.
Wish #3 would be for all my skin to bounce back and be tight without working out.
2)If you had all the money in the world, and perfect circumstances, how many children would you have and what sex?
I already have one son. I'd love a daughter too. One of each.
3) Have you ever faked it?
Um, yes I have. Do I currently? Nope...don't have to and its awesome!
4)What movie character do you think you look like?
Hmmmmm...I've been told Dana Delaney before, anyone else have ideas?
5)Which blog or comment spoke to you?
Amy and her most recent blog. Because I've been there, in that hard spot of uncertainty and I feel her pain. Love you ames!
1) If you had 3 wishes, what would they be and why?
Wish #1 would be to anxiety free. I know life causes anxiety, but I've dealt with the medical condition and medication for awhile now, and it would be nice to not have to take meds to feel less crazy!
Wish #2 would be a all inclusive vacation to Disney for my little boy.
Wish #3 would be for all my skin to bounce back and be tight without working out.
2)If you had all the money in the world, and perfect circumstances, how many children would you have and what sex?
I already have one son. I'd love a daughter too. One of each.
3) Have you ever faked it?
Um, yes I have. Do I currently? Nope...don't have to and its awesome!
4)What movie character do you think you look like?
Hmmmmm...I've been told Dana Delaney before, anyone else have ideas?
5)Which blog or comment spoke to you?
Amy and her most recent blog. Because I've been there, in that hard spot of uncertainty and I feel her pain. Love you ames!
Friday, May 14, 2010
BYOC...and weigh in
Morning. I feel like shit. Aunt Flo is here with a vengance and being a real bitch. Someone sent a football player over last night and he must have roughed me up in my sleep, because every damn muscle in my body hurts. Boo.
That being said...I still had a loss this week. I weighed in at 264.8 this morning, period and all. I think its like a 1.2 lb loss. Whatever it is, I'm taking it.
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BYOC
1) If you could be any cartoon character, who would you be and why?
Dora the Explorer. She is bi-lingual, travels a lot and has a magic backpack. Who doesn't want a magic backpack?
2)Who was your teenage heart throb?
It was more pre-teen but Joey from the New Kids on the Block. I had this satin pillow with his picture on it (its still in my closet) and the mouth is all but rubbed off from me kissing it all the time. LMAO!
3)Do you believe being overweight is about a mental obstacle or simply about overeating?
It's 100% mental. At least for me it was. It's still the struggle I have, even with my band.
4)What is your all time favorite song?
Shit. That's hard because I love all types of music. Probably Someone to Watch Over Me by Ella Fitzgerald. It's my favorite song to sing and has such passion.
5)Whose blog spoke to me this week?
Amy W. 's recent one with the pictures. How amazing she looked is a serious motivator for me. We started at close to the same weight and size and just when I'm down in the crapper about this whole weight loss thing, she posts something motivating and it gets my motor going again. Thanks Ames for being such a inspiration.
It's rainy and crappy here today and supposed to do it all damn weekend. My BFF is getting her bachelors tomorrow, and I'm soo proud of her that there are almost no words. She works full time, has two toddlers and did it, at 31 years old. I love you Beth, you are awesome!
Have a great weekend!
That being said...I still had a loss this week. I weighed in at 264.8 this morning, period and all. I think its like a 1.2 lb loss. Whatever it is, I'm taking it.
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BYOC
1) If you could be any cartoon character, who would you be and why?
Dora the Explorer. She is bi-lingual, travels a lot and has a magic backpack. Who doesn't want a magic backpack?
2)Who was your teenage heart throb?
It was more pre-teen but Joey from the New Kids on the Block. I had this satin pillow with his picture on it (its still in my closet) and the mouth is all but rubbed off from me kissing it all the time. LMAO!
3)Do you believe being overweight is about a mental obstacle or simply about overeating?
It's 100% mental. At least for me it was. It's still the struggle I have, even with my band.
4)What is your all time favorite song?
Shit. That's hard because I love all types of music. Probably Someone to Watch Over Me by Ella Fitzgerald. It's my favorite song to sing and has such passion.
5)Whose blog spoke to me this week?
Amy W. 's recent one with the pictures. How amazing she looked is a serious motivator for me. We started at close to the same weight and size and just when I'm down in the crapper about this whole weight loss thing, she posts something motivating and it gets my motor going again. Thanks Ames for being such a inspiration.
It's rainy and crappy here today and supposed to do it all damn weekend. My BFF is getting her bachelors tomorrow, and I'm soo proud of her that there are almost no words. She works full time, has two toddlers and did it, at 31 years old. I love you Beth, you are awesome!
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
RECIPE!
I made these the other night and they were AMAZING! I didn't get a picture, sorry.
Chicken Rollups
4 chicken breasts, pounded thin
1 block FF cream cheese
2 pieces bacon (do NOT use turkey bacon, unless its crispy)-crumble small or cut small
parmesean cheese
salt n pepper
Preheat oven to 400. Mix cream cheese, parm and bacon and seasonings. Place scoop of mix in the center of each chicken breast, roll up and pin with toothpicks. Place on sprayed baking sheet and drizzle with a little olive oil. Bake for 30 mins and check chicken.
These are creamy and full of flavor and protein. I call it Company Chicken because its soooo good to serve to company to show off. Enjoy!
Chicken Rollups
4 chicken breasts, pounded thin
1 block FF cream cheese
2 pieces bacon (do NOT use turkey bacon, unless its crispy)-crumble small or cut small
parmesean cheese
salt n pepper
Preheat oven to 400. Mix cream cheese, parm and bacon and seasonings. Place scoop of mix in the center of each chicken breast, roll up and pin with toothpicks. Place on sprayed baking sheet and drizzle with a little olive oil. Bake for 30 mins and check chicken.
These are creamy and full of flavor and protein. I call it Company Chicken because its soooo good to serve to company to show off. Enjoy!
Ch ch ch Changes
Hiya! Happy Thursday to all my lovely readers. I have a few small things to share today :-)
I had another NSV today. They seem to be happening a lot lately, which is totally ok with me because with all the stress in my life, I need some positive reinforcement damnit.
There are these jeans I've had since surgery. They are a slim fit, boyfriend style(little tears and stuff) in a "slim 22" size and I put them in my bottom dresser drawer to save for the future. I tried them a few months ago and got them to mid thigh and was like, HELL NO, and put them away. Well this morning I was in a hurry to get dressed and I just reached in the drawer and grabbed the first pair I touched. Slipped them on and looked in the mirror and about passed out. I had grabbed these and they looked amazing! No tight waist, no pulling legs, no breathing issues. My ass and legs looked slim and awesome and I ran into my moms room at 7am and woke her up to show her. Can we say NSV?? I knew we could. WOOT WOOT!
Second, my weigh in day. I changed it to Friday's. Why you ask? Because it gives me the motivation to do good thru the weekend, but also a little wiggle room in case we go out to dinner over the weekend. It seems to be working great so far, and keeping me VERY motivated to make better choices when I'm not in my regular schedule like the week. So tomorrow I'll update my ticker hopefully for the better :)
I'm asking all of you for advice on restriction. I haven't had much for the last month or so, but a week or so ago, it showed up with a vengance. For example....a month ago I could eat a 6 inch subway, bread and all. Now I take two bites and I almost PB. I had 4 triscuits and a string cheese hours ago and i'm still full. WTF? How can my fill from a month ago have taken this long to kick in?
I had a fill scheduled for today and cancelled it last night. I do NOT want repeat of the overfill, so I'm just going to work this restriction to my advantage until it goes away then reschedule.
Here is my food for today...
B-coffee w/ FF vanilla creamer
S- 4 triscuits, LF string cheese
L-baked chicken breast, steamed broccoli
S- grapes
D- lemon pepper tuna patties w/ mayo sauce
Lovies! I'll be back tomorrow with my weigh in results.
I had another NSV today. They seem to be happening a lot lately, which is totally ok with me because with all the stress in my life, I need some positive reinforcement damnit.
There are these jeans I've had since surgery. They are a slim fit, boyfriend style(little tears and stuff) in a "slim 22" size and I put them in my bottom dresser drawer to save for the future. I tried them a few months ago and got them to mid thigh and was like, HELL NO, and put them away. Well this morning I was in a hurry to get dressed and I just reached in the drawer and grabbed the first pair I touched. Slipped them on and looked in the mirror and about passed out. I had grabbed these and they looked amazing! No tight waist, no pulling legs, no breathing issues. My ass and legs looked slim and awesome and I ran into my moms room at 7am and woke her up to show her. Can we say NSV?? I knew we could. WOOT WOOT!
Second, my weigh in day. I changed it to Friday's. Why you ask? Because it gives me the motivation to do good thru the weekend, but also a little wiggle room in case we go out to dinner over the weekend. It seems to be working great so far, and keeping me VERY motivated to make better choices when I'm not in my regular schedule like the week. So tomorrow I'll update my ticker hopefully for the better :)
I'm asking all of you for advice on restriction. I haven't had much for the last month or so, but a week or so ago, it showed up with a vengance. For example....a month ago I could eat a 6 inch subway, bread and all. Now I take two bites and I almost PB. I had 4 triscuits and a string cheese hours ago and i'm still full. WTF? How can my fill from a month ago have taken this long to kick in?
I had a fill scheduled for today and cancelled it last night. I do NOT want repeat of the overfill, so I'm just going to work this restriction to my advantage until it goes away then reschedule.
Here is my food for today...
B-coffee w/ FF vanilla creamer
S- 4 triscuits, LF string cheese
L-baked chicken breast, steamed broccoli
S- grapes
D- lemon pepper tuna patties w/ mayo sauce
Lovies! I'll be back tomorrow with my weigh in results.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
I'm sitting at my desk, wearing a nearly translucent (and unflattering in every way possible) white polo shirt that my work gave me and required that i wear with dress slacks and heels, getting ready for a conference this afternoon. What is it about you are wondering?
Diversity.
My company feels the need to herd us like cattle into a college auditorium so we can hear a woman talk about how she came from the deepest part of the ghetto and made something of herself and is a Dr now. I think thats wonderful, but tell me why I have to sit and listen ALL DAY. Is it going to make me work harder at my job? No. Is it going to get me a day behind on my work? Yes
I have to be very careful what I say about my work here because there are some bitches that follow peoples personal lives online and bring it back to work as retaliation. Why you ask? Because they have no life except drama. Enough said.
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As we all know, today is Wednesday. Which means its Payday! Not literally.....let me explain.
When my ex and I were trying desperately to get preggo (I have PCOS bad), we went thru a lot of fertility treatments and after a year and a half we got pregnant with our son Peyton. My mom called him my Payday because it finally paid off. She still calls him Payday now and it's a cute nickname.
I get my son from Wed after preschool at 5pm till Saturday at 5pm when he goes back to his dad. It's as if my week changed from a M-F and looking forward to the weekends, and now my week starts on Wed when I get my sweet boy. So, rain or not, conference or not, I get to love and squeeze my little man who is growing like a weed. Here he is with his BFF Eddie. Peyton is on the right. I know I'm biased but he is the cutest thing ever.
So there you have it. My totally random, not band related at all post. Have a great wednesday!
Diversity.
My company feels the need to herd us like cattle into a college auditorium so we can hear a woman talk about how she came from the deepest part of the ghetto and made something of herself and is a Dr now. I think thats wonderful, but tell me why I have to sit and listen ALL DAY. Is it going to make me work harder at my job? No. Is it going to get me a day behind on my work? Yes
I have to be very careful what I say about my work here because there are some bitches that follow peoples personal lives online and bring it back to work as retaliation. Why you ask? Because they have no life except drama. Enough said.
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As we all know, today is Wednesday. Which means its Payday! Not literally.....let me explain.
When my ex and I were trying desperately to get preggo (I have PCOS bad), we went thru a lot of fertility treatments and after a year and a half we got pregnant with our son Peyton. My mom called him my Payday because it finally paid off. She still calls him Payday now and it's a cute nickname.
I get my son from Wed after preschool at 5pm till Saturday at 5pm when he goes back to his dad. It's as if my week changed from a M-F and looking forward to the weekends, and now my week starts on Wed when I get my sweet boy. So, rain or not, conference or not, I get to love and squeeze my little man who is growing like a weed. Here he is with his BFF Eddie. Peyton is on the right. I know I'm biased but he is the cutest thing ever.
So there you have it. My totally random, not band related at all post. Have a great wednesday!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
NSV!!!!
Ok peeps, get this.... I have kneecaps. Did you know that? I thought I might because when I was a kid my mom took a lot of pictures, and somewhere I remember seeing them. It's been that long though.
My wonderful mom and I were lounging around on the couch the other night and I looked down at my leg(in shorts no less!) and was like, HOLY SHIT BATMAN! (I think i actually said that...i'm such a dork!) I had a kneecap, it was hard and round and i could feel it. I stared in wonder for awhile and my mom was just smiling at me and kinda shaking her head. It was the first time in YEARS that my knee didn't look like a huge blob of fat. This made me feel so good that I wore dressy capri's to work the next day and got lots of compliments.
Now i'm sure you are like, WTF Ramona....you find your kneecaps and only wear capri's that don't show them? Um, no I didn't. Apparenlty my thighs haven't gotten the memo the knee's did, but that's ok, they will eventually and I'll take pics of my first shorts outing, when it happens. :-)
That's all I have today. A whole post about my kneecaps, aren't you glad you read this? I know I am. Someone else in the world just smiled because they read my post, what could be better than that?
Peace out homies!
My wonderful mom and I were lounging around on the couch the other night and I looked down at my leg(in shorts no less!) and was like, HOLY SHIT BATMAN! (I think i actually said that...i'm such a dork!) I had a kneecap, it was hard and round and i could feel it. I stared in wonder for awhile and my mom was just smiling at me and kinda shaking her head. It was the first time in YEARS that my knee didn't look like a huge blob of fat. This made me feel so good that I wore dressy capri's to work the next day and got lots of compliments.
Now i'm sure you are like, WTF Ramona....you find your kneecaps and only wear capri's that don't show them? Um, no I didn't. Apparenlty my thighs haven't gotten the memo the knee's did, but that's ok, they will eventually and I'll take pics of my first shorts outing, when it happens. :-)
That's all I have today. A whole post about my kneecaps, aren't you glad you read this? I know I am. Someone else in the world just smiled because they read my post, what could be better than that?
Peace out homies!
Friday, May 7, 2010
BYOC! Friday May 7th edition
1. Do you have any nicknames?
Yes I do. My son calls me Mom, Mama and Mommy. My mother calls me Miss or Missy because when I was little I was a “prissy missy” and it stuck. My ex called me Bean because I farted a lot. Amy W. calls me MoMo.
2. What was my “last straw” that brought on me wanting the LapBand?
My son. He wanted mommy to play with him, go for walks, ride with him on the merry go round and I was too fat and tired to do that. I got tired of sitting on the couch eating, crying and missing his childhood.
3. What’s your favorite joke or funny story?
You’re momma is so fat, she is on BOTH sides of the family.
4. If you could be a TV dinner, what flavor would you be?
Something cheesy with chicken and a big ole brownie.
5. What blog post or comment stuck with you this week?
Mine! I was FINALLY able to post that I’ve lost 50 lbs with my band.
Yes I do. My son calls me Mom, Mama and Mommy. My mother calls me Miss or Missy because when I was little I was a “prissy missy” and it stuck. My ex called me Bean because I farted a lot. Amy W. calls me MoMo.
2. What was my “last straw” that brought on me wanting the LapBand?
My son. He wanted mommy to play with him, go for walks, ride with him on the merry go round and I was too fat and tired to do that. I got tired of sitting on the couch eating, crying and missing his childhood.
3. What’s your favorite joke or funny story?
You’re momma is so fat, she is on BOTH sides of the family.
4. If you could be a TV dinner, what flavor would you be?
Something cheesy with chicken and a big ole brownie.
5. What blog post or comment stuck with you this week?
Mine! I was FINALLY able to post that I’ve lost 50 lbs with my band.
50 POUNDS LOST!!!
Where in the hell?
Hi there! No…I didn’t die, fall into a ditch, get run over by a reindeer or any other absurd thing you can imagine. Life got busy, I got busy and well damn…I’m just a slacker I suppose
First of all I must announce that I have hit one of my goals. 50 pounds lost!!!! As of this morning I am 265.5 which is actually 50.5 lbs but ok. It’s taken me a lot longer than others, but I got there and I’m really happy about it. I’m solidly in 22’s on the bottom and mostly 1xl (some 2xl on cotton top) on tops. My shoe size is a 9.5 now, not a 10w like before. My bra before was a 46 E, now I’m in a 42 DD and it’s getting big. I’m almost small enough to buy a bra from VS!!!
I guess I could take some measurements if I think about it later. So…WOOHOO!!
My next goal is to hit 100 lbs lost by the BOOBS convention in late September. That gives me almost 5 months to kick ass, take names, and lose 50 lbs.
I had a check up last week with my surgeon and have 8.5 cc’s in my band. They think I don’t need anymore fills. Some days I agree with them, other times I don’t. Of course the days I think they are crazy and that I for sure need a fill are also the ones in which I eat all slider foods and don’t pay attention to portion sizes. When I actually measure my food and eat good I feel it working. I have a fill appt next Thursday for a .25 baby fill. I think I’m going to take it and then be done for awhile. I have decent restriction that will get better with a baby fill.
Speaking of babies. NO I AM NOT PREGNANT. Sorry to shout and shit, but you know how some people are that ready my blog, everything is taken literally, so that was for you. You know who you are.
Anywho’s……babies. I have one and I thought I wouldn’t want any more, well that has changed. I want at least one more, if not two more. Now, I’m not in any position or place to get pregnant right now, and am preventing that from happening. But its been on my mind a lot as I lose weight and as I am getting older. How am I going to feel after losing 100lbs or more then getting pregnant and gaining weight and having to lose what I gained during the pregnancy all over again. Also, that would mean that my tummy tuck that will be much needed, would need to be postponed until after the babies. Basically I’m looking at years of dealing with excess belly skin just to wait for more babies. Hmmmmmmmmmmm.
Things are moving along with the paperwork that will make me a divorced woman. We are still getting along civilly for our sons sake and the custody arrangement is working out really well. Since I am not paying a lawyer $1500 to file my paperwork, I’m doing it myself and once I submit them next week we will just wait for a court date to make it official. I know everyone involved will be relieved when all of this is finalized.
BOOBS-Chicago. The plan is still for me to go and room with Tiffani. I’m really looking forward to meeting everyone and I know there are some people going that I’ve never read their blogs before. I promise to try this weekend to get thru some of them and get to know you all.
Pictures. VLOG. Stats. These are all things I am hoping to get posted this weekend to catch you all up.
I love you’s. xxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Hi there! No…I didn’t die, fall into a ditch, get run over by a reindeer or any other absurd thing you can imagine. Life got busy, I got busy and well damn…I’m just a slacker I suppose
First of all I must announce that I have hit one of my goals. 50 pounds lost!!!! As of this morning I am 265.5 which is actually 50.5 lbs but ok. It’s taken me a lot longer than others, but I got there and I’m really happy about it. I’m solidly in 22’s on the bottom and mostly 1xl (some 2xl on cotton top) on tops. My shoe size is a 9.5 now, not a 10w like before. My bra before was a 46 E, now I’m in a 42 DD and it’s getting big. I’m almost small enough to buy a bra from VS!!!
I guess I could take some measurements if I think about it later. So…WOOHOO!!
My next goal is to hit 100 lbs lost by the BOOBS convention in late September. That gives me almost 5 months to kick ass, take names, and lose 50 lbs.
I had a check up last week with my surgeon and have 8.5 cc’s in my band. They think I don’t need anymore fills. Some days I agree with them, other times I don’t. Of course the days I think they are crazy and that I for sure need a fill are also the ones in which I eat all slider foods and don’t pay attention to portion sizes. When I actually measure my food and eat good I feel it working. I have a fill appt next Thursday for a .25 baby fill. I think I’m going to take it and then be done for awhile. I have decent restriction that will get better with a baby fill.
Speaking of babies. NO I AM NOT PREGNANT. Sorry to shout and shit, but you know how some people are that ready my blog, everything is taken literally, so that was for you. You know who you are.
Anywho’s……babies. I have one and I thought I wouldn’t want any more, well that has changed. I want at least one more, if not two more. Now, I’m not in any position or place to get pregnant right now, and am preventing that from happening. But its been on my mind a lot as I lose weight and as I am getting older. How am I going to feel after losing 100lbs or more then getting pregnant and gaining weight and having to lose what I gained during the pregnancy all over again. Also, that would mean that my tummy tuck that will be much needed, would need to be postponed until after the babies. Basically I’m looking at years of dealing with excess belly skin just to wait for more babies. Hmmmmmmmmmmm.
Things are moving along with the paperwork that will make me a divorced woman. We are still getting along civilly for our sons sake and the custody arrangement is working out really well. Since I am not paying a lawyer $1500 to file my paperwork, I’m doing it myself and once I submit them next week we will just wait for a court date to make it official. I know everyone involved will be relieved when all of this is finalized.
BOOBS-Chicago. The plan is still for me to go and room with Tiffani. I’m really looking forward to meeting everyone and I know there are some people going that I’ve never read their blogs before. I promise to try this weekend to get thru some of them and get to know you all.
Pictures. VLOG. Stats. These are all things I am hoping to get posted this weekend to catch you all up.
I love you’s. xxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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