Interviews

Well ladies (and gents) blogging about needing a job must have done the trick (wink!) because I had a job interview yesterday and have two more tomorrow!! All are within my pay range and hour requirements so I'm stoked that one of them might work out. The best thought? Having to turn down two because I get all three. LOL

I'm bored of being home already. Jeremy seems under the impression that I love to clean and do laundry everyday and create elaborate meals for him and Peyton. Why? Because it's what I do every fricken day. It's almost as if a stepford wife has temporarily taken over my body while I'm not working. I guess I shouldn't complain because I'm getting compliments from everyone that comes over how nice and clean our place is. I guess I wasn't the best housekeeper before. But ya know what? I didn't give a shit what my old house looked like because I was depressed and my ex wasn't the best with cleaning so I just let stuff sit.Now it was never Hoarders, or even Clean House bad, but it had it's looong moments of clutter and dust. Having a clean house makes me feel great. So apparently those great feeling endorphins are working because the new and improved me, keeps a damn good house. Huh....who-da thunk it?

It's beautiful here in the STL today. About 70 degrees and breezy, just beautiful enough to make it ok that I wasn't working today and was able to open my house windows and enjoy the sunshine and clean air.
I'm also working on getting my webcam set back up so I can do a VLOG again soon. I know you all just miss my voice....LOL

Toodles for now. I'm sure I'll be back tomorrow to share about the interviews. Love ya's!

My evening in pictures.

went to a wedding of a friend, then had a great porch party at my sisters, got very inebriated, and had a great time.Here it is in pictures.

Rocking Amy W.'s brown wrap dress again. Ugh my legs are sooo white.

Barely made it thru the door before this happened. :-)

 Yeah....those are our clothes where they landed last night. This was taken this morning. LMAO!

 This is what morning after happy looks like! :)

Sleepy and in love!

It's Chicago Day....

for everyone it seems but moi. I have a good friends wedding this weekend and my best friends birthday party sunday so it was an impossible goal to get to go to BOOBS weekend. I'm going to miss it all. The stories, the bonding, the CLOTHES! Ugh...makes me feel cruddy. Have fun my sisters and I hope to see you all next year in NYC!

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My move is complete and we are settling in wonderfully. The transition from a couple who saw each other on weekends, to living together, has been very smooth. A few misunderstandings, but nothing I could call a fight or even an argument, just normal snippyness(is that a word?lol) from everyday life. I'm sooo happy. Like, romance novel happy. Like, gag me with a spoon happy. Like, head over heels happy. For this first time in my entire LIFE, I am 100% ME. No hiding how I feel, no pretending not to like rap or country, no stress about my weight. I am able to be everything I feel and more, all day everyday. Jeremy has totally set me free and as super gooey as it is, it's the God's honest truth.
God made us friends at 17, going to prom together. Then reuniting 13 years later on FB after he broke his back in a fall and happened to make an account and look me up. The rest is history and my life has changed. Everyone sees it. I hear every day that I'm "glowing" and have changed so much. Well, damn right I'm glowing. It's not every day that a woman gets to meet her soulmate and have the best friendship, sex, affection etc. that life has to offer. So I'm going to BEAM ON and just be a sappy rom-com woman in my blissful love.

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My ass is smaller. So are my legs, even though my spare tire refuses to shrink while my tits just deflate more every day. We live on the second floor so it's two flights to get in from the parking lot, and I do it 3-5 times a day. I was on the toilet this morning (dont worry, i'm not getting grody on ya'll), and we have a full length mirror on the wall behind the toilet, so when I stood up to wipe I caught a glimpse on my rear end and legs. I stopped in my tracks because the bulges on the tops of my thighs are all but gone, the dimples in my legs were almost faded away and i saw definition in my calves. I even have the saggy upper thigh skin going on. The changes in my body is what is keeping me motivated, because the number sure isn't moving like I feel it should. This must be the time where I plateau weight wise, but see the changes in my clothes. Ya wanna know how I feel about that? Perfectly fine. Content. I do want to get smaller, that's the point right? But I'm enjoying my body more than I ever have before (Thank you Jeremy...wink!) and i've started to wonder if it's the transformation I see inside that is changing my reflection in the mirror. :-)

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I'm still looking for a freakin job. In case anyone missed it, I got fired from my job in mid-August. I missed one day and my jerk-off of a supervisor didn't like how I talked to him one day, and called the HR dept to fire me after he left for the day. Pussy. Sorry to be harsh, but damnit...I'm a single mother, trying to move forward, and this pansy ass,nascar lovin, boat shoe wearin, frat boy boss decides to use the one day i missed to let me go. Then they had the nerve to deny my unemployment. You read that right. I've been without money since August. If it wasn't for the generosity of my mother to let me stay without paying, and then Jeremy to use his savings to move us into our place even though I couldn't contribute at all, I'd be up shit creek.
So now I'm searching, penniless, for something making enough to cover my bills. I have applied at restraunts and retail places and have gotten no call back. I've worked in a office setting for the last ten years, but of course those places either aren't hiring, or they say they are and then you get a postcard denial notice in the mail. It's the only negative/frustrating part of my life right now. I'm doing a lot of praying and I apply to about 10 places each day. I'll keep ya'll posted if I get any bites.

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My car is ready at the shop next door to our new place, so I gotta run and get it. One of my GF's had her baby last week and I'm going over there to keep him busy so she can nap, shower and eat. I just love babies!
Have a great weekend. Especially if you are in Chicago. You better miss me damnit, cuz i'm missing you. Muwah! :*

I have a spare...

tire that is around my waist. I can feel the shape of my body changing and I'm definetly losing weight in my belly/waist area but it's making my belly roll more prominent. I'm in need my sisters. Need of YOUR tips or excercises to tighten that area. I'm walking a lot and take two flights of stairs several times per day, but I need to seriously tighten my ab area.

My shirts look great on top and bottom but the middle looks something like this...

So let's hear it ladies. Youre tips for tightening the belly area. I have a long post that I'm working on and will share soon. Lovies!

HELP!

I'm so frustrated i can't even tell you all. I'm desperately trying to get my layout and background and everything changed and it isnt working.
Can someone help please?

Renovations

Sorry I have been missing my dearies, but I've been busy moving into my new apartment with Jeremy! We did major renovation to the dining room area and wanted to post the pictures to show off. :)


Before (the wallpaper was TERRIBLE to strip off and im soooo glad its over!)

After: A few coats of paint, a new table set and some decor and Voila! I haven't found anything for the bare wall yet, suggestions?

New Pictures

My love, my heart, my boyfriend Jeremy and I this past weekend at a friends wedding.

This is me, ROCKING Amy W.'s brown wrap dress. I'm a solid size 22 right now and I felt great in in.

This is what a $11 beer looks like at a concert in the STL.

Cheesin and sweatin...

My family. Brothers, mom and me :)

My bff's graduation party. Jaeger bombs!!

I'm alive!

Where have I been? Living. That's where. :-) Let's play catch up....ready?


First of all I'd like to say that I'm sorry I just disappeared. The only "excuse" that I have it that I've been a single mom, a new"ish" girlfriend and busy busy with family. That doesn't mean I haven't been reading along with you all, I just haven't taken the time to post my own updates. I am also aware that my bandiversary came and went without a post, and for that I'm sorry.

Ok, all that apologizing stuff aside..here is the update.

Weight loss: None. I've been maintaining pretty much. Staying in the same 3-4 pound range for the last couple of months. I joined Gold Gym because my work has a weekly payroll deduction so it's easy to pay for and cheaper than doing it on my own. I haven't gone yet because they require you to do a 1 hour session with a trainer for your first visit and they do it during my work times. I'm going this week no matter what though. I'm ashamed to say that it's been a year since my surgery and I've worked out a total of 5 times. My loss would have reached my goals had I not been so lazy and I have no one to blame but myself. I am mad at myself that I let the band do it's thing and didn't do much to help it along. I told myself when I had it that I would bust my butt to help it work and I didn't. I'm going to spend the second year of my banding to do just that. I've been eating what I would describe as just "ok". Sometimes I'm great about it, other times not so much. I'm a sucker for BBQ and we do that pretty much every weekend and my willpower is as strong as a piece of foil in a hurricane. Ugh.

I was contemplating getting a tiny fill and decided against it for several reasons.

1) My new insurance doesn't cover the band at all. So it's $300 for me to get even the tiniest fill and if i'm too tight, I have to pay another $300 to go in and get the unfill.
2) If I actually ate correctly and worked out, I'd do great with the restriction that I have now. So I'm going to do it for 2 weeks and if at the end I am still starving all the time or not losing, I'll make the appointment.


On the good side, I am still down more weight than I've ever lost before and starting today it's going to continue to go down. Posting will help that I'm sure. I just hope I haven't lost all my readers and commenters. You guys really motivate me and keep me on my toes.


Relationships: Wow, where to start. My divorce is not final yet. The papers have been filed so now it's just a matter of getting a court date to make it legal. He and I are still great friends and other than a few little disagreements here and there, we are doing good. Our son is used to the schedule now and it's been great spending time with him.


I'm seeing an amazing man. His name is "J" and he is my everything. We knew each other in high school and reconnected on Facebook of all places 13 years later. We spend every second we can together and he and Peyton just love each other to death. I am so happy that it's sickening. My mom and sister said that for the first time in my life, I'm my TRUE self. It's an amazing feeling to be able to let go and not have to hold anything back for fear of rejection, or disappointment.

We are looking for apartments right now and are hoping to be moved out of our parents houses by the end of September/October. I know it's only been 6 months we've been seeing each other but it's been the best 6 months of my life. I'm really excited about starting a home with him and my son. More about me and him later, just know that I'm delirously happy and feel like it's finally right. My heart that is :-) If he says ok I'll post some pics of us, I'm not sure how he feels about being online for everyone to see.


Work: I can't remember if I posted about this or not, so bear with me if I did. I changed jobs the first week of June. The drama was getting out of control at my old job and I had to move on. So move on I did. To a smaller, privately owned in-home nursing company. I do all the billing and collections for the nursing services and I deal with the insurance companies and such to ensure payment. I've done it for years and am exceeding expectations here as well. However, there are downfalls of such a small company. People here are in everyones business and don't really care about sabotaging someones livelyhood over petty shit like how long someone was in the bathroom or if they touched the internet on their computer. I'm struggling to stay because I love the work, but not the atmosphere. So we shall see how that goes.

Sisterhood: I have some size 24 pants that I need to donate, also a few tops that are just too big for me to wear anymore, mostly 2xl and 3xl. Anyone in need??

Also, I'm on the hunt for some 20/22 dress pants as well as dressy tops for work (2xl or 22), and casual tops too. Anyone got??

I'm going to go catch up from the weekend. I love you all and hope I haven't lost you. HUGS!

Very sad today...

I don't think I'm going to be able to go to Chicago. Money is so tight right now I can barely pay the bills (being newly single sucks ass sometimes), and unless I win the lotto or something crazy happens, I don't think I'll be able to go.
I cried really hard when I realized that even though I live 4 hours from Chicago, that $159 a night, PLUS all the food and drinks and stuff is just too much for me for my situation right now.

Wah :-( Everyone is going to meet and become BFF's and I'll be at home, crying and missing it all.

Fuck.

BYOC

I'm having a crappy week so all I'm posting today is the BYOC. Everyone have a great weekend.


1) If you had 3 wishes, what would they be and why?
Wish #1 would be to anxiety free. I know life causes anxiety, but I've dealt with the medical condition and medication for awhile now, and it would be nice to not have to take meds to feel less crazy!
Wish #2 would be a all inclusive vacation to Disney for my little boy.
Wish #3 would be for all my skin to bounce back and be tight without working out.


2)If you had all the money in the world, and perfect circumstances, how many children would you have and what sex?
I already have one son. I'd love a daughter too. One of each.

3) Have you ever faked it?
Um, yes I have. Do I currently? Nope...don't have to and its awesome!

4)What movie character do you think you look like?
Hmmmmm...I've been told Dana Delaney before, anyone else have ideas?

5)Which blog or comment spoke to you?
Amy and her most recent blog. Because I've been there, in that hard spot of uncertainty and I feel her pain. Love you ames!