BOOBS~ I’m GOING! I’m soooo fucking excited it’s so close to me that I can choose to either drive or fly. Let me ask what you ladies think.
I am about 5 hours driving from Chi-town, but it costs to park everyday there and the gas to get there and back. But I’d have a car.
Or, I can fly for $179 roud trip and not have to worry about the car at all.
Thoughts???
I’m going to be roomies with Tiffani and the thought of meeting everyone has me soooooo excited and more motivated to get some more weight off so I can look as HOTTTT as all of you ladies will.
I just pulled a one inch long thick, wiry gray hair out of my head by my bangs. OMG! I’m 31 and they are here already? I’m stressed, I get it, but damn GINA!
I made a 5 minute video on my camera last night but couldn’t get it to upload to the computer so obviously couldn’t post it, but I’m going to try again tonight.
Todays food….
B-coffee
S- banana
L-grilled chicken, grilled shrimp, tomato/mozzarella salad in balsalmic
S- string cheese
D-salmon patties, salad w/ light Italian
My brother in law moved the elliptical machine into our basement yesterday, so I’m going to workout tonight and see how long I can go without dying. LMAO! I bet it’s not even 5 minutes.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
BYOC #4
Howdy peeps. I've been missing because my work blocked internet at our desks and my home internet was not letting us log in. But I'm back!!!
Here is my BYOC Draz.....:-)
Oh, and if someone does not give me the details on the Chicago get together, I'm gonna cry. Im only 4 hours from there and am coming. Please someone, send me some info.
1. If you ever won the lottery – what’s the very first thing you’d do?
Well, I'd do two things. I'd hire a lawyer and quit my job.
2. What is your favorite curse word?
Mine is F#ck and Sonofabitch. All ran together like that. :) I'm a sailor, what can i say?
3. What is your favorite holiday and why?
Christmas. Im a christian, so there is that aspect, it also represents love and family to me.
4. What turns you on?
Good lord. Um...Hmm.
Being kissed below my earlobe in the soft part of my neck. Having my ass grabbed. Dirty talk.
A good smelling man. Strong hands. Candles and pillows :)
5. Whose blog spoke to you, stayed with you, meant the most to you, stands out to you this week and why?
I read about a thousand this week. The one that stayed with me was when Amy W posted her newest bikini pictures and it was the looking down at her body shot. I was like...OMG Ramona, you could actually look like that someday. It was a body I was envious of and that made my journey seem worth it. I love you Ames
Im trying to get my video camera working so I can VLOG for awhile. We shall see.
Oh, weight is 269, holding steady with no loss or gain.
Here is my BYOC Draz.....:-)
Oh, and if someone does not give me the details on the Chicago get together, I'm gonna cry. Im only 4 hours from there and am coming. Please someone, send me some info.
1. If you ever won the lottery – what’s the very first thing you’d do?
Well, I'd do two things. I'd hire a lawyer and quit my job.
2. What is your favorite curse word?
Mine is F#ck and Sonofabitch. All ran together like that. :) I'm a sailor, what can i say?
3. What is your favorite holiday and why?
Christmas. Im a christian, so there is that aspect, it also represents love and family to me.
4. What turns you on?
Good lord. Um...Hmm.
Being kissed below my earlobe in the soft part of my neck. Having my ass grabbed. Dirty talk.
A good smelling man. Strong hands. Candles and pillows :)
5. Whose blog spoke to you, stayed with you, meant the most to you, stands out to you this week and why?
I read about a thousand this week. The one that stayed with me was when Amy W posted her newest bikini pictures and it was the looking down at her body shot. I was like...OMG Ramona, you could actually look like that someday. It was a body I was envious of and that made my journey seem worth it. I love you Ames
Im trying to get my video camera working so I can VLOG for awhile. We shall see.
Oh, weight is 269, holding steady with no loss or gain.
Friday, April 9, 2010
BYOC
Here we go with Draz's BYOC. Enjoy!
1. If you could have lunch with a famous person who would it be and what would you order?
Wow, what a hard question. I love famous people. Hmmmm......I guess I would say Clay Aiken. I'd LOVE to sing with him and record it somehow. He has a amazing voice and seems like a really nice person. I'd be his fag hag if he asked :-P
2. Where’s the furthest place you’ve traveled to?
Cancun Mexico. Its at the bottom tip of Mexico, so I'd say that's pretty far away.
3. If you could describe yourself in 4 words – what would they be?
Loyal, Loving, Kissable and Outgoing
4. What’s one interesting thing about you we don’t know?
I keep everything. Movie ticket stubs from 15 yrs ago, every picture my son colors at school, clothes that are waaaay out of style, even VHS tapes of my favorite old movies. I'm not like the crazies on Hoarders, but I love having those sentimental things. When I moved in February most of the boxes were my little trinkets and stuff that went straight to the basement. LOL
5. Finally – whose blog spoke to you, stuck with you, stayed in your mind, resonated with you – this week – and why?
My own. Sounds snobby right? I have been in a FUNK with a capital F lately. I'm guilty of letting every little thing, songs, movies, convo's, food, shows, everything get to me. My upbeat post earlier in the week was a turning point for me, at least in the latest battle to "find myself" on this journey.
1. If you could have lunch with a famous person who would it be and what would you order?
Wow, what a hard question. I love famous people. Hmmmm......I guess I would say Clay Aiken. I'd LOVE to sing with him and record it somehow. He has a amazing voice and seems like a really nice person. I'd be his fag hag if he asked :-P
2. Where’s the furthest place you’ve traveled to?
Cancun Mexico. Its at the bottom tip of Mexico, so I'd say that's pretty far away.
3. If you could describe yourself in 4 words – what would they be?
Loyal, Loving, Kissable and Outgoing
4. What’s one interesting thing about you we don’t know?
I keep everything. Movie ticket stubs from 15 yrs ago, every picture my son colors at school, clothes that are waaaay out of style, even VHS tapes of my favorite old movies. I'm not like the crazies on Hoarders, but I love having those sentimental things. When I moved in February most of the boxes were my little trinkets and stuff that went straight to the basement. LOL
5. Finally – whose blog spoke to you, stuck with you, stayed in your mind, resonated with you – this week – and why?
My own. Sounds snobby right? I have been in a FUNK with a capital F lately. I'm guilty of letting every little thing, songs, movies, convo's, food, shows, everything get to me. My upbeat post earlier in the week was a turning point for me, at least in the latest battle to "find myself" on this journey.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood
won't you be my neighbor? :)
It's a sunshine, spring filled Tuesday here in the STL and even though I fell (like a ton of bricks) sunday morning and badly sprained my left ankle, I'm still happy.
Easter weekend was beautiful weather wise, I spent it with friends and family and it was so great. Yes I ate too much, but who didn't? I also sat outside in the breeze and watched my beautiful son play in the yard with his cousins with a HUGE grin on my face.
Sometimes I let the negative things in my life bring me down, more often than not I do this and I'm trying to start a fresh life for myself where I can appreciate the beauty in the positive things and not let the negative get me down.
I have a job that I love (most of the time), friends who love me unconditionally, family that is always there, the most beautiful and smart child I could ask for, a civil seperation, old friends coming back into my life and making it so much better than I ever thought possible. The weather has been nice, I'm comfortable where I'm living and even though money is so tight I can hear it squeaking, I'm surviving. Life is good. I am blessed.
So who cares (at least today) that I have gained weight in the last two weeks regarless of my fill? Who cares that I have a overflowing basket of laundry all over my floor? Who cares that I only have $6 to my name until payday on Friday?
Not me. Not today and hopefully not in the future.
I want to be the best me that I can be. I want to love and be loved in return for who I am completely. I'm there and it's so great.
I want to be comfortable with my body and I'm getting there slooooooowly but surely and starting to move more than I ever have and am going to continue doing it. You are all great motivators and the box of size XL tops that Amy W sent me is motivating too because they are so cute and way too tight right now.
Hug the people that love you and support you and smile today. You are healthier than you were, happier than you were and cared about more than ever.
I love you all. Hugs!
It's a sunshine, spring filled Tuesday here in the STL and even though I fell (like a ton of bricks) sunday morning and badly sprained my left ankle, I'm still happy.
Easter weekend was beautiful weather wise, I spent it with friends and family and it was so great. Yes I ate too much, but who didn't? I also sat outside in the breeze and watched my beautiful son play in the yard with his cousins with a HUGE grin on my face.
Sometimes I let the negative things in my life bring me down, more often than not I do this and I'm trying to start a fresh life for myself where I can appreciate the beauty in the positive things and not let the negative get me down.
I have a job that I love (most of the time), friends who love me unconditionally, family that is always there, the most beautiful and smart child I could ask for, a civil seperation, old friends coming back into my life and making it so much better than I ever thought possible. The weather has been nice, I'm comfortable where I'm living and even though money is so tight I can hear it squeaking, I'm surviving. Life is good. I am blessed.
So who cares (at least today) that I have gained weight in the last two weeks regarless of my fill? Who cares that I have a overflowing basket of laundry all over my floor? Who cares that I only have $6 to my name until payday on Friday?
Not me. Not today and hopefully not in the future.
I want to be the best me that I can be. I want to love and be loved in return for who I am completely. I'm there and it's so great.
I want to be comfortable with my body and I'm getting there slooooooowly but surely and starting to move more than I ever have and am going to continue doing it. You are all great motivators and the box of size XL tops that Amy W sent me is motivating too because they are so cute and way too tight right now.
Hug the people that love you and support you and smile today. You are healthier than you were, happier than you were and cared about more than ever.
I love you all. Hugs!
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Now that's funny right there
Gooood Morning peeps! I had my mini fill this morning and got .25cc's which brings me up to 8.5 in my 14cc band. They made me drink that barium shit and I almost barfed on the dr. The flavor and texture made my mouth water and the tech girl grabbed a trash bag. I was embarassed but they are dr's and have seen it all I figure. I didn't vomit until after the dr took the needle out of my port thank god. He said the restriction looks great and he doesnt think I'll need another fill after this (um.....yeah right dude). So i'm supposed to go back in a month and see how its going.
Onto other HILARIOUS things. So I'm sitting in the waiting room at 8am and in walks a couple. She looked "normal" enough, but OMG I actually giggled out loud for a second and covered it up by a cough when I saw her husband. Imagine this man..with dark brown hair. His shorts were so tight he could barely sit and his sleeveless shirt showed a bunch of blurry tattoos and of course the traditional "hoosier" barbed wire arm ring.
Business in the front, Party in the back! LMAO!
Sorry to curse, but it fucking cracked me up! The only thing this man was missing was a fanny pack. LMAO! Of course it's 1030am and i'm STILL giggling.
Ok, work is calling and I cant slack too much since we are sort on peeps for the holiday.
Here is my "food" for today.
B-Nada
S-coffee
L-soup
S-string cheese (chew to mush)
D-maybe mashed potatoes or soup
Love yas!
Onto other HILARIOUS things. So I'm sitting in the waiting room at 8am and in walks a couple. She looked "normal" enough, but OMG I actually giggled out loud for a second and covered it up by a cough when I saw her husband. Imagine this man..with dark brown hair. His shorts were so tight he could barely sit and his sleeveless shirt showed a bunch of blurry tattoos and of course the traditional "hoosier" barbed wire arm ring.
Business in the front, Party in the back! LMAO!
Sorry to curse, but it fucking cracked me up! The only thing this man was missing was a fanny pack. LMAO! Of course it's 1030am and i'm STILL giggling.
Ok, work is calling and I cant slack too much since we are sort on peeps for the holiday.
Here is my "food" for today.
B-Nada
S-coffee
L-soup
S-string cheese (chew to mush)
D-maybe mashed potatoes or soup
Love yas!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
insert clever title here....
Howdy! It's a 80 degree day here in the Lou and I get my little man tonight for the next 3 days and I'm happy about that. I have a small fill tomorrow, so I will be on liquids tomorrow and depending on the fill, possibly Friday.
My mom and I are hosting Easter at our place this year. Ham, cheesy potatoes, green bean casserole, dumplings, veggie tray, chips and dip, pies and cakes. I am VERY happy that I'm getting a fill tomorrow so I can be in control, especially around all the damn chocolate and jelly beans that will be floating around.
Im going to post some before and current pics either tonight or tomorrow. Should be interesting.
Have a great evening. Love yas!
My mom and I are hosting Easter at our place this year. Ham, cheesy potatoes, green bean casserole, dumplings, veggie tray, chips and dip, pies and cakes. I am VERY happy that I'm getting a fill tomorrow so I can be in control, especially around all the damn chocolate and jelly beans that will be floating around.
Im going to post some before and current pics either tonight or tomorrow. Should be interesting.
Have a great evening. Love yas!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
I lost it....
Restriction that is. It's crazy to me how .75cc's can make such a DRASTIC difference in my weight and quantity of food. Wowsa! I have a small fill this thursday morning at 8am. I hope it helps some because if it isn't nailed down, it's in my mouth, down my throat and on my tummy roll before I know what it was I put in there in the first place. Shit guys, you have no idea.
I've always been a emotional eater. Happy, sad, angry, stressed etc. We have ALL been there at some point or another and anyone that says they haven't are seriously delusional. LMAO
Obviously I have a lot going on these days. The seperation, the new place to live, new people in my life, old people out of my life, my son, work, good weather, free time. All of these things I am LETTING effect me and how I am eating. I haven't watched a calorie in God knows how long. Well that stops today.
My work is doing the Biggest Loser competition again. We did it the first 2 months of the year and out of 30 people I came in 5th. Not too shabby I say. More people were expecting me to shoot to the top of the list because of my band. Well I showed them that someone with a band can gain or even have a small loss and that I have to work as hard as any of them do even though I have a "cheat" as someone called it once. Well screw them. Im human and got to 316 lbs at my highest weight because of lack of one thing...SELF CONTROL. I'm slowly getting it back and with help of my biggest supporter and BFF Elisha, we are going to do this together at work. Every...stinkin...day. We are going to walk on our lunch break and not order out lunch and of course get in our water. I'm tired of not changing sizes, of feeling like a fatty again because I've let myself gain 5 lbs in the last 3 weeks by just being plain lazy.
And that's all I have to say about that! :-P I'm at 270 today. A 3 lb gain from last week, and I got back to 270 which once I hit 269 I "said" I wouldn't ever see again. I'm not a liar, I just let myself slip...so sue me! :-p
Here is to a new start, a bright and sunny Monday.
I love you my supporters. Without you I'd just be another crazy bitch talking to myself......just picturing that makes me giggle.
HUGS!!
I've always been a emotional eater. Happy, sad, angry, stressed etc. We have ALL been there at some point or another and anyone that says they haven't are seriously delusional. LMAO
Obviously I have a lot going on these days. The seperation, the new place to live, new people in my life, old people out of my life, my son, work, good weather, free time. All of these things I am LETTING effect me and how I am eating. I haven't watched a calorie in God knows how long. Well that stops today.
My work is doing the Biggest Loser competition again. We did it the first 2 months of the year and out of 30 people I came in 5th. Not too shabby I say. More people were expecting me to shoot to the top of the list because of my band. Well I showed them that someone with a band can gain or even have a small loss and that I have to work as hard as any of them do even though I have a "cheat" as someone called it once. Well screw them. Im human and got to 316 lbs at my highest weight because of lack of one thing...SELF CONTROL. I'm slowly getting it back and with help of my biggest supporter and BFF Elisha, we are going to do this together at work. Every...stinkin...day. We are going to walk on our lunch break and not order out lunch and of course get in our water. I'm tired of not changing sizes, of feeling like a fatty again because I've let myself gain 5 lbs in the last 3 weeks by just being plain lazy.
And that's all I have to say about that! :-P I'm at 270 today. A 3 lb gain from last week, and I got back to 270 which once I hit 269 I "said" I wouldn't ever see again. I'm not a liar, I just let myself slip...so sue me! :-p
Here is to a new start, a bright and sunny Monday.
I love you my supporters. Without you I'd just be another crazy bitch talking to myself......just picturing that makes me giggle.
HUGS!!
Friday, March 26, 2010
Friday Funnies
Hiya! It's a sunny PAYDAY Friday here in the STL and I'm doing good. Work is work, bills are bills and my weight is the same. Now on to more interesting things.
I got this in a email yesterday and I laughed my ass off and sent it to everyone I knew. So steal this mo-fo and share it, let women everywhere laugh like I did.
THE MOOD RING
I got this in a email yesterday and I laughed my ass off and sent it to everyone I knew. So steal this mo-fo and share it, let women everywhere laugh like I did.
THE MOOD RING
My husband, being unhappy with my mood swings,
bought me a mood ring the other day so he would
be able to monitor my moods.
We've discovered that when I'm in a good mood it turns Green.
When I'm in a bad mood, it leaves a BIG red mark on his FUCKING forehead.
Maybe next time he'll buy me a diamond.
LMAO!
I want to give a shout out and a thank you to Drazil for my Ho-Bag award. Thanks bunches!
Have a great weekend. Love ya's!
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